this poem never made it to the blog…

#ThisIsMyPoetryBlog

A beginning and end poem
 
What did I know, 
in my freshman year,
about subliminal messages 
from members of the opposite sex?
She was older and more worldly, 
having just returned from a junior 
year abroad. 

I was in awe.
I read her my freshman year poetry. 
It was all I had.

She urged me to submit it 
to the college newspaper
for the annual poetry issue,
but she didn’t tell me 
she was the poetry page editor.
I should have known that, 
but what did I know? 
Her encouragement was enough. 

Three poems were accepted.
I was ecstatic!
What was I to do next?
I didn’t have a clue.

She invited me to her apartment
for homemade soup – I accepted.  

It’s not what you think.
We had long conversations
over almost daily visits
about exotic places she travelled to,
places I hoped one day to…

View original post 56 more words

another poem from the Cullowhee archives – Lost at night in Asheville

I took the wrong turn –
or missed my turn –
but still reached the poetry destination.
It’s easy to get all caught up
in structure and technique
when you are writing/reading prose –
but with poetry, anything can happen.

A friend – of a new friend,
and an old friend,
and a distant relative,
and a classmate –
introduced himself to me.
The world is so small.

And a homeless man sat at my table,
gathering change for a bus ticket
to Charlotte, he said.
I shook his hand but shushed him –
it was during the poetry reading –
as any good librarian would.
Though I had no cash,
I thanked him for his company.

There are plenty of gypsies
and monks – like me – in these hills.
These hills –  I am learning to love
their bending, curving,
never-ending ways –
they speak to the centripetal forces
already in my soul, and carve
a path of least resistance
through their mountain home.

December 13, 2014

From the Cullowhee archives – gardening

gardening has given me
a different relationship
with the environment
than what I had before –

weather, mainly.
I fret a bit when it’s been dry –
and I worry when it rains
too long or too hard

or too frequently –
weeds are so much more adaptable –
and I have seeds in the ground,
and skin in the game.

From the archives – sonnet #14

Back story. Back in 1990, we all had answering machines. I’d come home from work and a red light would be flashing. I would rewind the tape and listen to the messages. I had a friend on the west coast, a long distance relationship, perhaps. We would write poems, sonnets to each other and read them on each other’s answering machines. I got home from work late one night, and behold, the red light was flashing – a poem from KMC on the west coast. I scribbled one out and sent it right back.

Dear friend, I listen to your poems of late,
and contemplate the dreaded thought of life
without the prospect of your fond embrace.
I reminisce about that kiss one June:
too soon, too late to consummate; too true
to be denied; too pure to not be sure
that God intended for our souls to dwell
as one, exclusive, all-embracing love.
No matter what the future holds in store,
I did, I do I’ll always love you more
and more; though distance separate us far,
I’ll search the constellations for that star
that shines in you. And should I die, too soon,
apart from you, we’ll meet again one June.

1990

On viewing a painting

Last night a character from one of my plays visited me in my sleep. Let’s call it a vision. She told me, “Ray, the play is cool and all, but I need you to write something about me, alone, all by myself, without the other characters. A sonnet, perhaps.” I said, “OK, but what would you like me to write?” She said, with a lot of sass, “I came all the way here, doggone it (not her exact words), just write what you see.” Here is what came out when I woke up, before coffee:

The painting included a nude subject,
a woman of immense beauty, seated
at a table having coffee. The steam
slowly rises from her cup (I love how
the painter captured that!). Her left hand
holds a fountain pen – she writes a letter –
perhaps to a distant lover, maybe
to her child away at college. She stares
out into space – a pregnant thought commands
her attention. Her thoughts leave the canvas
and mingle with my own as I am drawn
into her world. She must work out, such tone
in her muscular limbs. I back away –
distance and perspective change what I see.

I never made it to Olongapo

I never made it to Olongapo.
Had orders once, but didn’t understand
the meanings of the words. Instead I traded
for a Norfolk fast boat, long and black.
Other places I might have tried but didn’t –
names and addresses I seldom remember,
just fragrances of sweat and tastes of tears –
memories of what futures might have been.
My claims to fame were straits I navigated,
deals I negotiated on the fly,
troubles I avoided, not from knowing,
oh no, not from knowledge, but from respect
for the unknown. My lights burn dimmer now –
I barely recognize those tracings from the past.

Splendid Wake #8

Join us on ZOOM for Splendid Wake 8 to celebrate the history of poetry in the nation’s capital.

Date Time: Nov 8, 2020 02:00 PM Eastern Time (US and Canada)

Join from PC, Mac, Linux, iOS or Android: Click Here to Join
Passcode: 029021

Miles David Moore will discuss the history of the IOTA Poetry Reading Series.

 Raymond Maxwell on Howard’s Hidden Poets.

Joanne Rocky Delaplaine with a tribute to Stanley Plumly, poet, teacher, Maryland Poet Laureate.

Sydney March,  A Memorable Twilight,

John L. Brown, Poet and Diplomat. Remembering Lyn Lifshin, Karenne Wood, and Mary Bowman.

Henry Crawford, Master of Ceremonies.

The event will be live on ZOOM on Sunday, November 8th at 2 p.m.

Please register ASAP: https://tinyurl.com/y2449vf7

From the archives – My Feet Spoke to Me

One day walking home from work
my feet spoke to me. They said:
“Ray, we don’t want you sticking us
in your fancy brown custom-made
dress shoes from Portugal.
They are tight, and our toes
can’t move around freely.”

“OK,” I said, “let’s try
an older pair tomorrow,
something more worn,
more broken in.”

My feet said, “OK, but if we don’t like it,
you won’t like it either.”

I said, “OK, tomorrow we will wear the ECCO’s,
the Baghdad ECCO’s
that are well-worn and broken in.”

The next day my feet spoke to me again.
They said, “Ray, we don’t like the ECCO’s either.
We discussed it among ourselves and decided
we want the brown leather Saucony’s,
you know, the running shoes.”

I said, “but I can’t wear running shoes
to work with a Suit.”

They said, “If you don’t, we won’t like it.
And you won’t like it either.”

So Sunday night I cleaned up
the Sauconys and gave them
a good buffing with cream polish.

Monday morning my feet were smiling!

November 2012

Bob Kaufman at Saturday poetry group

All those ships that never sailed

All those ships that never sailed
The ones with their seacocks open
That were scuttled in their stalls…
Today I bring them back
Huge and transitory
And let them sail
Forever.

All those flowers that you never grew-
that you wanted to grow
The ones that were plowed under
ground in the mud-
Today I bring them back
And let you grow them
Forever.

All those wars and truces
Dancing down these years-
All in three flag swept days
Rejected meaning of God-

My body once covered with beauty
Is now a museum of betrayal.
This part remembered because of that one’s touch
This part remembered for that one’s kiss-
Today I bring it back
And let you live forever.

I breath a breathless I love you
And move you
Forever.

Remove the snake from Moses’ arm…
And someday the Jewish queen will dance
Down the street with the dogs
And make every Jew
Her lover.

*********************************************************

And here is my memorial to Bob Kaufman based on the form above:

All the letters I never sent

All the letters I never sent,
poems I wrote but only shared
with special friends (those
who dug the cut of my jib).
I warehouse them (most but not all)
like museum extras, far from the eyes,
and outside the reach of saints.

All the morning walks I stopped
taking after my fall,
from fear, misplaced perhaps,
that I might fall again and get stuck
somewhere off a beaten path
where no one could hear
my pleas and groans.

All the lies I never told
because I never felt the need
to misrepresent, to be
anybody or anything other
than my own true self.

I still fall in love too easily,
so I’m told – but there’s always
a link, a connection
worth tracing, a node
in a complex network
where we can meet.

And yes, I still get seasick –
the surface is no place
for lovers to hang out.
Once we reach
the dive point and submerge
the ride gets smoother.

a poem about a work of art

My body is missing that uphill walk
Each day from the Metro to the Mecca.
Bosch’s The Garden of Earthly Delights
affords me reprieve as I start the week.

The dragon tree – a plant that heals and dyes
A crimson red – is my first stop. I drink
Her blood and feel at once her curing power.
Reptiles seek terra firm where they can.

The owl is a nighttime bird of prey
Always watching, eyes wide open, spirit
Beast of the gods. A lion devours
A deer without compunction. His nature

Dictates relieving hunger pangs. So what?
A serpent wraps himself around a tree
That bears sweet fruit – tree of good and evil.
The pink fountain no doubt is feminine:

Her dotted eggs await incoming seed.
The darkened Moors below also await.

From the archives

A poet who used be a swimmer
and a chess player showed me her sonnets.
It didn’t take long for me to try one.
Fourteen lines and it was love at first sight.
She swam on a precision team. She played
chess with homeless men in Dupont Circle.
In her day job she analyzed and crunched
complex numbers at a government bank.
We sent letters with sonnets we’d compose
back and forth for several years before
the spell broke. We went our separate ways,
our poetry paradise forsaken.
Could it have ended any other way?
What is an end? Sonnets still fill the space.

On Sunday morning Full Measure is better than Meet the Press – a sonnet

Sonnet written in response to a Facebook message from a well-meaning friend on a Sunday morning.

I don’t really know or care what “troll” means,
and I have lost track of who follows me
on Facebook. What I know about events
in Michigan could fill a thimble, maybe,
though what I do know is that the far left
and the far right have consensual sex
whenever it suits them. All these group names
are a distraction – focus on the signal,
not the noise. The volta is late, it seems,
but don’t count it out. Good disruption hides
beyond the fear and hate that plague us,
that’d nail us to a tree. All that’s left
is the resolution couplet – the close,
a dangling modifier lost in space.

p.s. This tape will self-destruct in 60 seconds. Enjoy the music.

View Post

Experimentation in Standard Time

We discussed Richard Wilbur’s The Beautiful Changes in our group this morning and the middle stanza reminded me of this effort from 2013, Enjoy.

#ThisIsMyPoetryBlog

Experiment in Standard Time

Autumn urban afternoons
get shorter and sweeter –

standing in the middle of “I” street
I await a very specific angle on the bow,
as my ship called Earth comes about:
a unique perspective on how time passes –

in the distance you can see Virginia:
how many beats per measure
are there in Standard time?

the future is reaching back to join us,
to warn us, to help us alter course
to starboard so we can pass port to port –
the present and the future,
like two ships, passing in a storm.

We post to a blog or sing a song:
we write some non-rhyming words
we call poetry –

and time is a social construct,
a contractual agreement we accept
from fear of things we don’t know –
dawn to dusk, high noon
to the darkest part of night –

a 24 second shot clock.
We sink…

View original post 18 more words

From the archives – Bus Station

(Note: I rode a lot of buses in my teenage years. Up and down. Back and forth. And on those bus trips, lonely and bored more than anything else, I began writing poetry. Here is one of those efforts from the archives. End note.)

Bus Station

Newspapers and M&M’s
Coca-cola and a cigarette
Happiness/sadness
In its purest state –

A devil sitting there
Emotionless, expressionless,
Temporarily permanent

“We remind you that federal regulations permit . . . ”
prostitution . . .
poverty . . .
ignorance . . .
drug addiction . . .
and every conceivable form of immorality . . . . and
“ . . . cigarette smoking only in the rear of the bus . . . . ”
where black people are still forced to sit,
“ . . . in seats clearly marked
for convenience.”

…now loading at Gate 3…
your schedule for:
Danville…
Lynchburg…
Charlottesville…
Washington…
Freedom?

Dear Mr/Mrs Paternalistic White/Black Supremacist,
how many men/women have you destroyed today
with your lustful liberality
with your calloused conceited charm
with your sinister southern smile,
how many of my people have you destroyed today?

How many have you paralyzed:
from the waist down?
from the neck up?
on either side?
How many have you paralyzed?
Did you reach your quota today?

1974

poem for a Saturday

an irregular riff of my heartbeat
awakened me last night –
interrupting a pleasant dream.

I am alive! And I can overcome
the dull monotony of deathlike sleep
if and when I choose.

Maybe it was the coffee I drank
too late in the afternoon
that stirred me from sweet sleep.

The dream? I was in a field
of overgrown wildflowers –
hunting for sassafras roots
my father planted in his youth –

The old men used to say no caffeine
after lunch. I never thought
it would apply to me.

Happy Autumnal Equinox to everybody!

John Coltrane – Equinox

https://modpo2015.wordpress.com/poems-of-note/john-coltrane-equinox/

thirty-three lines of haiku

Thirty-three lines of haiku
streaming on postcard media –
ran out of gas just as
the driver was needing a nap –

An old job ended –
tears of sadness and joy.
A new job started
without a vacation gap.

The pandemic is winding down
In some places
And picking up steam
In others. Uneven steps

progress down the path
to an uncommon destination

Ancestry sent me an update –

Ancestry sent me an update –
I’m more African than before,
not sure how they pulled that off.
Just the other day I told a friend
on facebook I was whiter than most –
Which most? was her quick retort.
I guess we made our points.

from the archive: Let’s celebrate!

Poems from the crucible, pt. 7

Let’s celebrate!

I’ve clearly been reading too much Walt Whitman! (“It’s not where you take it from. It’s where you take it to.”)

Let us celebrate every aspect of our being!
Celebrate our parents and our children, our ancestors on whose shoulders we stand and all the generations yet to come.
Celebrate our gender, whether male or female, whether binary on non-binary.
Celebrate our race, our blackness, our whiteness, our redness, our yellowness, our brownness and everything in betweenness.
Celebrate our nationality, our place of origin. Celebrate our migration from there to here.
Celebrate our straightness and our queerness.
Celebrate where we went to school, whether elementary, middle school, high school, or college.
Send them a check, big or small, whatever you can afford to let them know you care.
Celebrate the God/Goddess/Deity we serve if we are religious.
Celebrate our unbelief if we are atheists or agnostics.
Celebrate all our doubts and our certainties about everything.
Celebrate our friends and our enemies.
Celebrate the “things” we own and our freedom over materialism.
Celebrate any knowledge we have. Celebrate the things we can never fully know.
Celebrate our hopes for the future. Celebrate our fears.
Celebrate being married. Celebrate being single and unencumbered.
Celebrate having children. Celebrate being childless.
Celebrate every aspect of our being.

From the archives – an elegy

Did They Ever Find His Body? An Elegy for Christopher Dorner

I had forgotten about Chris Dorner
Until Dave Chappelle’s mention. I recall
secretly pulling for him, hoping he’d
escape being swiss-cheesed by 400
Of his fellow cops. Did they ever find
his body? I found his manifesto,
living and breathing on the internet.
He left behind a lot for us to read
and digest. Hyperlinks . . . all over the place.
Did they ever find his body? We’ve not
heard from him since. We must assume he died
in that shitstorm, transitioned this life.
Still, the mention of him makes me want to smoke.
The burned body they found was never identified.

From the archives

To Phillis, Emily, and Gwendolyn

The words we read, the lines we write,
are gaps in time, that soon take flight –

poetry has that property
transporting us through space –
we write a word and make a rhyme
and aim it to its place –

if accurate, we hit the mark,
we reach the goal we seek –
but if precise, we claim the prize,
and scale the highest peak –

the words and rhymes unwind, divide
with measured purpose, need –
then seek to replicate the thought
and shape the world of deeds –

The message in the poems we write
is free, yet hidden in plain sight.

Walt Whitman read-along Monday at noon EST

Anybody interested in a group read of all 52 cantos of Song of Myself?

Google Meet at noon, EST, Monday, Sept. 7.

Blessed by Al.

Click this link Monday at noon EST:

https://meet.google.com/rrf-isbt-fbq

If anybody needs the text, it is all here:

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/45477/song-of-myself-1892-version#modpolive

From the archives – Cosmos Club

When I was a young pup and a struggling undergrad, I worked briefly with a friend doing janitorial work. One of our contracts was with a local entertainment venue in Greensboro, the Cosmos Club. We would come in after midnight on weekends, clear away the trash, clean the tables, and mop, strip and wax the floors. Of course, I imagined coming there to party, though I never traveled in those circles. So I wrote a poem about it. 1976.

Cosmos Club

Come in, come in . . .
Let the smoke invade your mind
and nod your head to the rhythm
of electronic disco music

Sit down, sit down . . .
Join us in a game . . .
of cards, or chess,
or death by double-elimination.

Have a cup of coffee . . .
or a can of beer,
or a shot of whiskey,
or a pull of reefer.

The cosmos is mathematical
and methodical and
exciting and fun, and
deliberately subjunctive.

Memoir update – Table of Contents

Prologue
Beginnings
Woodberry Forest Experiment
Shabazz Bakery the lost years
Return to Greensboro and NCA&T
Navy Memories I: Enlistment and Training
Navy Memories II: USS Hammerhead
Navy Memories III: USS Michigan
Navy Memories IV: FAMU NROTC
Navy Memories V: USS Luce
Pre-Foreign Service
Orientation and Pre-assignment training
Embassy Bissau – the first year
Embassy Bissau – the second year

Embassy London
Domestic Assignment: The Operations Center
Embassy Luanda, Angola
Embassy Accra, Ghana
Domestic Assignment: AF/EX
The Final Eight Years – The Islamic Trifecta
Domestic Assignment – The Near East Bureau
Epilogue

From the archives – Still under construction: For Aretha

Still under construction – For Aretha

I can’t pretend it was just like any other
summer day. We gathered early, after coffee,
for the morning plenary session that officially opened
the annual SAA conference. The Archivist of the U.S.
addressed the assemblage and promised to keep his oath
to the Constitution. A famous scholar from UNC
improved on her TED talk about the effects of algorithms
(an Arabic word that sneaks too often into our conversations),
algorithms that control all the social media they let us see.
I tweeted a photo of her to friends in Cairo and Ankara
and flashed back to my time in Damascus, promising
to share the Youtube video with them all soon.

Then my phone buzzed: it was a mournful incoming tweet
containing and announcing Aretha’s passing.
(We knew you were sick, but the final words,
good bye, would never fit in our vocabularies.)

I tried to respond with a tweet but my phone’s
battery strength was too weak to pump it out.
Instead I pulled out my iPad and found a spot
in the hotel lobby where the wifi signal was strong.
All I could think to type, though, were the lyrics
to my favorite Franklin song: “Ain’t no way, ain’t
no way for me to love you, if you won’t let me.”
Later I posted to Facebook the Frank O’Hara poem,
“The Day Lady Died” because I knew my poetry friends
would be grieving. But the evening was still young
and I couldn’t just crash early on your transition day.

So I found that August Wilson passage that
set the scene in “Joe Turner’s Come and Gone”
about a song “worth singing, kicking in the chest…”
a song that was “both a wail and a whelp of joy.”
And I said a little prayer for you.